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So here it is, I finally have my own real blogger. It took awhile, but I pulled one out. You can check out my other blog (combined with Seana-na) at www.emandseco.blogspot.com.

I posted this in my other blog but decided to copy it onto this one (becuase it is my personal one)...

[Anyways things have kinda been hard recently. I have been going for some tests (blood work, bone scan) to figure out what the heck was wrong with my ankle/foot/toe. Anyways in all my tests the same results showed. In my swollen ankle, I have arthritis. In my numb toe, I have arthritis. My blood work also told me that. It's wired, when people think arthritis, they automatically think older people. I know I never expected to get arthritus at 15. They call it juvenille arthritis... because I am so young. Anyways yesterday my doctor told me that it's called Rheumatoid arthritis. A not so good kind. And let me tell you, it is Pain-ful! My doctor gave me some pain killers that seem to work, so that's good. But sometime soon I need to go visit a specialist in Toronto...

Just knowing that I'm going to have this for the rest of my life it's so hard to grasp. I mean, am I ever going to be able to do the activities I love? Skiing, volleyball, rockclimbing?

However, I know God is in control. Everything has a purpose when it comes to his plans. I guess his plan for me was arthritis. So I am going to have to accept that. It makes me different, cause God made me special, and he hasn't turned his back on me at all. And hey, maybe after awhile, it wont be such a bad thing....]

A few days ago I probably had the worst moment of my life. When I got up in the morning, I couldn't put my socks on the pain in my fingers was that bad (side affects to rhuematoid is very sore fingers). I felt so completley helpless. It brought me down so much, I felt old. Old. If you guys could continue to pray for me, that would be great! I appreciate it guys...

On a happier note, tomorrow is turkey day! And I realized that even through all this pain, I have a lot to be thankful for. And instead of focusing on the bad this holiday weekend, I am going to focus everything on the good. Today, for example, I put everyhting behind me and went out for lunch with two of my good friends (Kelly and Brittany). While I may be having a hard time, there are so many more people out there experiencing worse. So I ask you, what are YOU thankful for?